The Climb

Matthew 17:19-21 (NASB)
Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not drive it out?” And He *said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you. [ But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.”]

“All I ever wanted was for someone to listen!”

Does that sound familliar to you?

As much as I hate to say it, I don’t discuss matters of my health with people inside my church anymore. Be it physical, mental, emotional…even spiritual. It’s not because I don’t want anyone to know, it’s usually because I tire of the “default responses”

Now, what is a “default response” you might ask?

For many over the years, it may have been along the lines of if they were sick, they just needed to pray more. If they were depressed, they had nothing to be sad about because the Lamb has won the victory. In some churches, mental illness required a deliverance preacher to drive it out, because it was typically something demonic.

So what am I trying to say through all of this?

In my own life, I don’t take much of anything to the church leadership anymore, mostly because I feel as if I get the same three responses everytime, and therefore, I just don’t feel as if they had listened at all. I’m not criticizing their leadership, I’m just saying that not everything is a “one size fits all” solution, so please don’t treat me that way.

I really don’t have an answer for this, nor do I have something I can advise the universal church to do to help, because it’s just something that you’re either going to do…or not.

As for myself, seeking out the help of a counsellor has been an avenue I’m pursuing, as I must be wearing out some people who should be charging me at a half-hour rate for the things I’ve had to discuss.

That being said, sometimes there’s a few people, or even one person who you can confide in who will listen without assuming anything. I’m not saying to unload everything on them, but I am saying that it’s good to have trusted people around you.

So Now What?

From here, well…as much as you might not want to hear it at times: We pray. I know that’s probably something you’re likely sick of hearing people say that they’re doing for you, but it’s true. If you continue to trust that you have the so-called actual answer, you will continually let yourself down over and over again. It’s as simple, difficult, and as frustrating as that, and if you’re wanting a magic formula to fix all the problems, it’s not out there…believe me. I’ve looked, I’ve searched, I’ve tried. Absolutely to ZERO AVAIL!

As the hymn “Jesus Paid It All” says: “Child of weakness, watch and pray”

Hang in there! God bless…